Mar 30–Apr 5, 2026
Spring is here. The cherry trees are in bloom, and more and more people are stopping mid-walk to take photos. Miss it now and you’ll have to wait until next year. Seeing all those colorful flowers somehow makes my heart feel a little lighter.
It’s been about four months since I started rehab. After the surgery, I barely moved for a while and wasn’t being careful about my diet either. But since I was cleared to do lower-body exercises, I’ve been working out consistently and watching what I eat. I still have a long way to go before I’m back to where I was, but my left arm is slowly starting to build muscle and my body composition is improving. My trainer said my body is gradually getting toned again like before, which was encouraging. I’m scheduled for another surgery in September, but until then I want to get in the best shape I can.
Work wasn’t particularly heavy this week. The main features are all done, so I’ve been focused on performance improvements and general refinements. The performance work ended up requiring profiling with Instruments — it took time, but with AI’s help I worked through it bit by bit, reading and understanding as I went. It still feels like a challenging area, but I think AI will make the analysis and the work itself a lot more manageable going forward.
Lately, I’ve had this feeling that I’m actually living my life. Things look different now from before — not a salaried employee, but someone earning income from products I’ve built or through contract work. A life where a packed schedule has given way to a lot of open, empty time. A life where the things I’m responsible for feel rawer and more immediate than before. It suddenly struck me that so many of the things I’m doing feel like a kind of practice within my life. Reading as a practice for the mind, working out consistently to build a healthy body. Moving little by little in the direction I want to go — it feels like I’m practicing something. It’s interesting. I am living my life.